Pieces of Me

Stuff...

I just wanted to share my newest project! Felt flower hairbands! Yes, I do sell them at petalboutique.etsy.com

I just love these things! I sit on my butt on my 'down time' and cut out tons of petals and then put them together when I get a chance.

   

Cuteness... right? :)

Autumn in her costume!

I love this costume! I went and helped out at her class party.. it was crazy.. but a lot of fun. I somehow got stuck doing the bat project and ended up covered in glitter lol.

The boxes I did (posted below) were a HUGE hit! Everyone loved them!

Tryin' to be super mom..

Key word.. TRYIN'! lol.

I was going to make some pumpkin shaped sugar cookies for Autumn's class party tomorrow.. I made the dough and put one batch in the oven and that was it.. lol. I am SO tired today!

Alannah wanted cupcakes. I wanted to make them all cool looking but the little miss wanted 'polkadots and sprinkles' *sigh* so I gave her just that.

She helped a little bit :)

Soo... WHY did I decide to be the bad mama and ditch the class party cookie idea? Because I spent HOURS putting these awesome gift boxes together for Autumn's class. Lots of folding and hot glueing!!

Not only that.. I am helping with the class party from 9:15am until about noon tomorrow.. eeeek! They are havinga costume parade and junk food all day... should be fun! :)

I still need to get some photos of Autumn in her costume. She is wearing it to school tomorrow so maybe I will be able to snap a few before she leaves.. oh hell! That reminds me.. I need ot get up earlier tomorrow. *grumble* Maybe I should go to bed now? Think the kiddos will put themselves to bed? yeah.. probably not.

How cute is this?

Alannah begged.. and begged.. and begged a little more for this costume. I am so glad it worked out for her and looks so nice. These were just some quick pics... I hope to get some better ones on Halloween.

Hopefully this will put a lil' smile on your face...

Because it's cracking me up! LOL This costume is so friggin' ADORABLE!!! it is defintely big though :( It doesn't look too bad I suppose. For halloween I will probably roll the sleeves and pant legs under and stitch them in place so it doesn't look so sloppy.

This was just a quick try on. Cruddy pics.. he wasen't really in the mood and I am sore.

LOL! How can you NOT love this?

Poor little dude has a tear in his eye here :(

Oh yeah.. today is just greeeat.

If you like pain and misery.

Today is not good at all. Austin has a fever and is really whiney. I can only comfort him so much right now. I feel bad. I wish I could hold him on my lap and cuddle him. I have given him a cool bath and tylenol and it took it down a little bit. I am keeping an eye on it. He doesn't want to eat but he is drinking. I hope this doesn't end up being an urgent care trip.

Autumn had school today so she was gone most of the day.. but geeeeeze. When she got home she made it known! She is in the WORST mood today. I just wanna drop kick her (kidding of course) ahhhhh! Alannah picks up on Autumn's little moods and she just gets her going even more. She is like her daddy.. she enjoys kicking people when they are down lol. Egh! So frustrating!

I feel like such a downer. I am usually happy and funny and now I am just whiney and.. whiney. *cries*

And for some weird reason my LEFT side hurts really bad today. There is not one single incision over there.. they didn't touch anything over there.. but it's killing me. Go figure.

Today was a good eating day for me. I was able to eat a 1 egg and some hashbrowns, a small brownie and a sandwich without my belly aching like crazy... so that's good. Now I just need to eat dinner without problems and it will be my first full day of meals in a long time!

Alrighty.. that is it for now. I am sure I will be back to whine again soon lol!

I wanna bake!

I am in the mood to bake. Too bad there is no way I can bake like I want to being I had surgery last week.

I told Autumn I would make some Halloween cookies  for her class. I am gonna do some cute cut-out sugar cookies. I am sure I will post pics once I make them. I might do cupcakes as well.. or maybe a cake to have here at the house.. I dunno yet.

Anyhow.. I have my first no-gallbladder issue yesterday. I ate a piece of reduced fat coffee cake.. next thing I know my belly started aching and was gurgling so bad I am pretty sure my stomach was cussing me out LOL! Then I had to go.. and in...'go'.

Ooooh man. My body was NOT happy with me.

So.. I now know I can't do reduced fat coffee cake. I was actually surprised because it WAS reduced fat.. and it's pretty much bread.. which I know I can have. Must have been the sugar.

I keep hearing and reading horror stories of gallbladder surgery issues. I am SO hoping I am not one of those people. I do not want to live my life on a toilet... that is just not cool. I definitely do nto want to live off of bread, crackers and water either. yuck.

Today I am gong to try some chicken noodle soup. That should be OK.. I hope.

OH! And the burping and hiccups! CRAZY! I do not get a lot of hiccups in a row like a person normally would. I just get 1-2 big ones. It hurts like hell right now and makes my incisions feel like they are bursting open. The burping I guess will always happen from what I read.. oh yay. Man.. I sound so attractive, eh? I haven't been able to go in the shower, I am walking around burping and hiccuping and well.. I am just a mess.

I am alive... barely.

As most of you blog readers know.. I have had some issues with gallstones lately. Yay... not.

These past two months have been HELL! I had the one very painful gallstone attack and since then it was almost an every other (or every two days if I was lucky) pain I was having. Usually lasting a few hours.. but always VERY painful!

About 2 weeks ago I had my usual pains but these pains were taking my breath away. I was vomiting and passed out. I called Ryan to come home.. and called my mom to come watch my kiddos. My mom lives about 2 hours away so we decided to call an ambulance to get me to the hospital ASAP (an hour away). I got to the hospital.. and the stupid doctor tried to tell me I had the flu.. umm. no. After literllay having a fit in the ER they did a CT scan and ultrasound and told me my gallbladder, although it had stones, was perfectly fine and the surgeon said it was not an emergency to remove it. NOT A DANG EMERGENCY? I have lost 15lbs from not eating because anytime I eat the pain comes, I was lucky to get sleep two nights in a row.. etc. But still.. not an 'emergency' Psssh! I went home drugged up with a new prescription to vicodin.

This past Monday it started... again. Monday it was a dull pain the vicodin would take away for a couple hours.. so I just kept poping the vicodin all day.

Tuesday... oh yeah. Pretty much HELL! I was getting brave and taking two vicodins at once and it was barely taking the edge off. The girls were worried.. I was crying and just DYING. It was really bad. At night it kinda dulled away so I decided to pass out on the couch and figured I would wake up Wednesday just fine because the pain has NEVER lasted this long.. it was time for it to end. Nope.

Wednesday was HELL.. times 1,000. I was crying.. literally screaming into my pillow, etc. I was losing my mind. I had nobody to come help me. not.one.single person. My mom couldn't get up here, I couldn't get ahold of hubby at work.. and the few friends I have locally were nowhere to be found. I could have called my SIL and In-Laws but they live so far that by the time they got here the kiddos would have been in bed.. so I dealt with it... barely.

Hubby came home at 11:30pm and I told him I was dying.. heck.. it felt like I was! I told him I would most likely need to go to the ER. He has already taken off several days this month to tend to me and my broken body. So I really didn't want him to call out yet again. He kinda gave me a hard time about it.. it's just so frustrating for both of us. Everytime I go to the ER it is $75.00 and then they send me home with nothing being done. He tried to get me to ride it out but it wasen't happening. I told him something had to be seriously wrong because the pain would not go away and was getting worse.

Thursday morning came.. it was around 6:30am and I told him I HAD to go.. like.. now. Autumn missed school and we called up our friends April and Justin to see if they could watch or little monsters. Thankfully they could! So we rushed out and dropped them off and headed out.

We decided to go to a different hospital this time.. a private hospital where they tend to treat people a little better. I got in and they gave me a room.. I was in pain so they gave me some AMAZING pain meds. I have never been so happy and carefree in my life LOL! They did a quick ultrasound and the ER doctor said. "Wow.. now that's impressive" because I had a billion gallstones packed inside my gallbladder. He talked to the surgeon and YAY.. they surgeon didn't even question it and was going to remove it!!! I about crapped my pants (I know.. who the heck gets excited over surgery? lol). They did the surgery about 2 hours or so later.

I woke up in recovery and felt like I was hit by a bus. The surgeon came in with pictures of my gallbladder and said it WAS an emergency and it had to come out. I told him how the other hospital declined surgery and he shook his head and said, "I am sorry.. there is no way all this damaged happened in 2 weeks". Which pissed me off because that was an extra nearly 2 weeks of pain I was in. Egh!

But... it's out and I am on the way to recovery and the nearly daily pain will be gone! I am very sore right now.. I have heard gallbladder removal surgery is a pretty painful recovery and welp.. it definitely hurts worse then having my appendix out... easier then the 3 c-sections though!

I just want to thank everyone for their phone calls and kind words on Facebook, emails, etc. You are all so sweet!

A new set in my Etsy shop!

I just love this! I have a ready to ship size 5 at blissclothingco.etsy.com

 

 

 

 

I also made this darling little dress.. Ready to ship in my shop! Take a lookie!

 

 

The color in my photo is off.. this is the actual colors

 

 

 

 

Crap.

WTH!! Those on Facebook with remember the crazy spider that I named 'bubbles' that was in the shower with me.. remember? And it was HUGE, right? (For all those peeps without facebook.. you can read it here. I am pretty sure my profile is not private - http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/photo.php?pid=3562104&id=686765228 )  Yeah.. well apparently his big brother is after me now... and I was almost a goner! He put up a fight but the spider has been defeated!!! OK.. this is how it went down for those who care..

My cat Max was going crazy in my diningroom (AKA- jumping off my diningroom table and smacking against the wall pancake style) so I went to investigate. And then.. our eyes locked.. I KNEW he was out to get me. I went into slight panic mode as I looked for something to kill him with. WINDEX! I sprayed him and well. it doesn't kill bugs, people.. and I am sure I am the ONLY person who thought it would... he ran up the wall even higher. Frack!.. now super panic mode kicks in!
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Soooo.. I went and put my tall boots on (I was getting serious here) and got some pam, a piece of paper.. and a broom.

PAM - If the spider fell I was gonna spray him. I figured it would slow him down.. Non-stick style and only 5 calories a spray!!

PIECE OF CARDSTOCK PAPER- I dunno... maybe in case I needed to write a good-bye note if the spider jumped for my jugular?

BROOM- Cause I'm a witch.. in case I needed to fly away pronto!.. No-no... The broom was to smack that mofo seems he was so high up and I am a shortie!

BOOTS- To stomp his ass if he managed to fall to the ground and still be alive.

So.. I went in for the kill. I set my pam on the table with the lid off. Grabbed my broom.. then took a deep breath.

I whacked that fool!.. again.. and again.. and uh, again. I literally kept whacking until I saw legs fall off. Then.. WTH? his body was missing! I started looking around the floor while using my 3rd eye to keep an eye on the broom handle in case his was crawling up to bite my hand off. I didn't see him so I ran outside and banged the broom on the ground until I saw his curled up body fly off... stupid spider was lookin' like a raisin! Muahaha!

VICTORY!!! OMG.. that was so freaky. Heart palpitation city! Geeze!

Can I just say that living near a huge field is just NOT fun. All these litte critters come in here because it is getting so cold out at night. I wish I took a picture of this other thing I found last night. We found out it was a 'sun spider' AKA a tail-less scorpian! *shudder* ewwwwwwwwwwww! (NOTE: Do not.. I repeat.. DO NOT GOOGLE SUN SPIDERS) scary stuff.

Sooo.. who wants to see this spiders final picture before he was laid to rest?.. on my back porch!.. LOL I am pretty sure this is a brown recluse? OMG *thud* Yes.. I just died! Is it? I Googled and welp, it sure LOOKS like one! I thought it was a good ol' Garden spider but uh... I Googled that and nope.. doesn't look the same. (thank God for Google, eh? lol).

What is IT?

Life isen't fair.

I have been told this my whole life.. and it's so true.

I am SO tired of being in what seems constant pain. It is 3:20am and I am wide awake with a bottle of hot water (yum.. not!) and some wheat crackers because my hiatal hernia is KILLING me right now. I just wanna cry. Actually.. I was crying earlier. This started at 11:30 last night and slowly got worse as the night went on. I took a super hot shower and that helped a little.

I am exhausted and just.. sad. I am 26 years old and feel so broken down already. What the hell happened to me? I just can not imagine living with this hiatal hernia pain for the rest of my life. I mean.. I have my good days more then my bad, for sure. But the bad.. are baaaad. If I lay down it hurts really bad.. and then if I sit up too far and hunched over it hurts (which takes away a lot of sewing time)... if I have pressure on my chest it hurts (like from a bra).. if my pants are too tight it will start to hurt... so I sit around my house all day in loose comfy clothes.. and look like a bum.

GOSH.. I am such a dang whiner. But really.. *waaaaah*!!!!!

One more time, everyone...

LIFE IS NOT FAIR!

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Alannah Elise

My little cutie pie. She was a good sport today and took a few pics in this skirt I made.

I have a lot more I wanted to look through but kiddos needed to go to bed, etc.

My goober..

Not the greatest pics in the world.. but she sure is cute :)

Oh yeah.. my new READY TO SHIP Etsy shop is open. I am slowly adding things as I can. I still have things going on with my other shop and once I am all done over there then hopefully I can get busy creating new items.

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I have these two things up right now as well. Modeled by my other cutie, Autumn.

 

That last skirt I posted is SO pretty in person. I really like it! The skirt does have pinkish/purple on it.. hard to tell by this picture.. just looks liek I can't match well LOL. Oh well!

As you can probably tell we've been taking pictures in our backyard and the field next to us lol. It's all dead and icky.. I love it LOL!

And one more just to prove in our main yard we do have grass ;)

The planets are aligned... and I am an idiot.

I was browsing around my message board yesterday and saw a post titled "The way the planets are aligned right now brooms will stand up all by themselves" Just at that moment.. before I even read the entire post about it, I jumped up all excited and went to get my broom.

Sure enough! It stood up! Wahooooo!

AMAZING! I even yelled for Ryan to get out of bed to come see!
It was like having a celebrity in the house.. I was so amazed by the standing broom.. so was Alannah.

I don't think I could be more impressed unless it actually started sweeping by itself!

Then I read and saw that you could do it to an egg as well! Whaaaat!? No way! I have never been more excited to have eggs in my refrigerator!

On a side note.. check out how nice and clean my counters are lol.

Then I read more of the post and realized that this little email that goes around about 'planets being aligned' is a fake and in reality you can stand your broom up on ANY day if you have the right broom and try hard enough!.. so now I felt like an idiot. I am sure Bill Nye the Science Guy would NOT be amused. I was in my kitchen trying to stand straws, my yard stick, pens etc.

After hubby and I laughed at myself I started acting like a smartass with him..

"Ryan.. LOOK... the planets are aligned and I can stand an avocado up!"

"OMG.. OMG!.. Ryan.. LOOK.. you must see my chapstick standing up!"

"HOLEY MOLEY!!!! Ryan.. you will NOT believe this.. this is pure craziness!"
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"No... really! Come look!"
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"The planets are aligned and ALANNAH can stand straight up! All by herself!"
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Pssssh! What-ev. I even called my mom and everything.. what a let down! I had my mom trying to balance her broom lol.

Now.. my question is.. after seeing this post how many of you nerds tried standing a broom up?? LOL!

And hey.. you all are slacking on the comments! Well.. sorta. You all are leaving comments on FACEBOOK. Dorks! LOL.

Dear, Gerber.... WHY?

**Do not even bother reading this post unless you have some sort of sense of humor. lol**

Sooo.. Austin is really weird with eating meats. He will gag and spit the pieces of meat out unless they are really soft and small.

I got him these 'meat' sticks made by Gerber. I have gotten these before having 3 kiddos and all but I honestly do not remember them being so dang nasty!

I open the jar and right away I notice a foul smell.. these 'chicken sticks' smelled like they fell right outta someones ass.

I tried to stick my fingers in to grab one out and I crushed it. The chicken sticks like.. mutated together into one big clump of chicken crap. So I dumped out the water.. (or maybe it was formaldehyde? as I am pretty sure these things were actual human body parts and not chicken lol). I tried to shake them out and welp, that didn't work.. sweet talking them didn't work either... neither did cursing at them.

I figured I was gonna cut them up anyways so I went back to grabbing them out. They put up a fight.. but I won. I should have realized that if you have to fight that much just to get something out of a jar to eat it.. then ya probably shouldn't be eating it.

Do not even try to tell me those things looks like they should be eaten!

Need a better look??

Austin took a bite of one and seemed to think it was OK.. or maybe he just doesn't have any taste buds?

I personally think these things looks like some beat up chopped off fingers.. I mean.. come on! They ARE flesh colored! Ew. I am pretty sure I saw at least two of them that actually had what appeared to be a knuckle.

Wanna know what AUSTIN thought they looked like? I swear to you he did this himself.. and I about pissed my pants from laughing so hard... no really.. I was practically hyperventilating when he did this... tears and all!
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Oh... My... God! Ooooh, no he didn't!!!

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Oh.. oh yes, he did!

 

*thud*  Ahhhhhh! These TOTALLY look like a very ugly version of a certain part of the male anatomy. Oooh dear! This happened last night and I am STILL laughing about it. Poor Austin's has a bite outta it. Yikes!

So... after I agreed with Austin that these lil' sticks (as Gerber calls them) actually look like LIL' PECKERS I took it upon myself to change the label to more accurately describe what is actually in that jar.

Now, ya'll... don't go out and buy these all up.. you know your mouth is watering right now after looking at these juicy little chicken sticks!!

Maybe they wouldn't be so bad if they were battered and deep fried?....
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Yeah.. yeah they would.
Austin ate two and then threw the rest on the floor.

The cat ate one.. and then barfed all over the house. No joke.

I will never buy these again.. unless I need a good laugh...

After this my poor little mind was damaged into thinking all food was nasty.
Wanna know what fruit roll-ups look like? Vomit.. yes.. vomit. Chewed up food they has been mixed with stomach juices.. thrown up and dried out and then rolled up onto plastic and called a snack. Yum.

My lil' Gangsta'

Pssssh! Puh-leeeze!

 I love to get Autumn DC shoes... I usually order a pair or two every year. They always have cute styles and the prices are decent for being brand name 'skate' shoes. They are great quality and fit her narrow foot well. Ryan (hubby) recently told me that a certain gang wore DC brand shoes/clothing.. Umm.. OK. Last time I checked 6 year old girls were not gang bangers... so I figured she would be OK to get some cute DC's for school.

We ordered these little cute shoes for her. She loves them! 

Scary stuff..

Yesterday Austin was eating some goldfish crackers. He likes to shove as many as he can in his mouth sometimes.. which I hate. Welp, yesterday he shoved a bunch in his mouth. He went to stand up and I told him to sit back down and he started crying.. then all of a sudden he kinda gagged and then just stopped crying. It took me a few seconds to realize he was choking! He eyes teared up and he had the scariest look on his face. I ran over and shoved my finger so far down his throat to swipe the crackers out. I had to do it twice and then finally he started screaming again.. and I knew he was OK.  Ahhhhhh! That was so, so scary! He was freaked out and his little heart was racing :(

My poor little man.. I felt horrible. I need to get him to stop cramming food in his mouth.. he does it with everything! He can finish a full sized cereal bar in liek 3 huge bites!

Hopefully today will be nice and calm.. somehow I doubt it will be.

And just because.. a picture of my peanut with his sisters.. an old one.. but I can't believe he is already creeping up on 2 years old.

Life.

Just some updates on our chaotic life!

Things are going alright over here. Not too much I really wanna spill out to everyone right now but.. eh. I am slowly losing my mind I think. I just have like.. way too much on my plate right now.

Anyhow..

Autumn is rocking first grade! She is picking up things super fast. She is an excellent little reader. The teacher sends home books each week that are suppose to last all week (reading for 15mins 3x a week) and she has been reading those books in one day! (yes, the whole book in 15 minutes lol). I recently got her some bigger books and she is getting into reading the American Girl books. She got the Julie book with her last American Girl doll and she has started reading it and does pretty darn well.

At school everyday they give dot colors according to their behavior. She has gotten blue dots every day so far (which is the best) Which is GREAT because when she first started kindergarten she was a little crazy at school. I just wish she would behave at home. She is a backtalking little monster soemtimes. She still needs naps I think. During the week she is just sooooo whiny and bratty. When she is home with me on teh weekends I will give her a nap and she does act better.

She is making a lot of friends at school. She had a little boyfriend for awhile.. grrr... lol. He would tell her he wanted kisses and whatnot.. ack! He even brought her a present! lol. Thankfully he is in the past I suppose... for now anyways.. you know how kids are.

Alannah is doing alright... I guess. I am starting to worry about her actually. She turned 4 in July and STILL mixes up her colors sometimes, doesn't recognize letters or numbers.. forget even writing them! I dunno what to do. I work with her and she just does not get it. She will cry and say "I can't do it" I do workbooks with her and she will just not even try. I finally got her to write an uppercase 'B' recently.. but we've worked up to 'G' and all she remembers is 'B'.  :( I dunno if I expect too much of her seems Autumn has been doing kindergarden workbooks since she was 3. But I would think that by now she should know way more. I understand she is stubborn, but really?.. hmmm.

Other then that she doing great. She is super sweet but sure does have a sassy side of her!

Austin.. oh man.. Let's start the bids at $1.00. Highest bidder gets him! Ahhhhhhh! I have never in my life seen a child cry so much. He is working on the last two teeth and man.. he is making it known! He is baaad... seriously! I dunno if it is a boy thing but he has become a little punk! (I say that with love.. really. I mean, he IS my little man and all!) he throws things, hits his sisters, attacks the cat, etc. He looooves to yell 'NO!' and point his finger at you with a pissed off look on his face. *sigh* I feel like I am failing as a mother or something. He can be the sweetest little thing.. when he wants. But lately it has been crying non-stop. It's like that fake 'do something for me RIGHT NOW" cry. Grr! He flips out if he doesn't have a constant overflowing cup of milk. Very frustrating!

Besides me falling apart I am working on getting my photography business going again. Ever since moving up here I have never bothered marketing and then the clients in Lancaster slowly dwindled away because I stopped taking sessions. I just recently bought a new domain and will be getting a new website going soon enough. I really miss getting out and working with people so I am hoping to run a special for holiday sessions soon. I am changing the way I do my photo sessions though. I am really gonna try and avoid backdrops as much as possible. I will probably do a few free sessions for some friends just to get some newer pics for the new site.

I am still going to sew but I am going to start making the items ahead of time and selling whatever size/design I please. It seems like the minute orders come in something has to happen. Honestly by now most my repeat buyers probably think I am nutty because I had tooth issues.. then a sprained foot.. then this and that.. then more tooth issues, hernia pains off and on and now gallstones.. lol. All I can do is laugh honestly. It's literally always something.. crazy! Maybe it's Gods way of telling me to stop sewing? LOL! Speaking of... my new shop will be blissclothingco.etsy.com to go with my new photography business site www.bliss-photos.com (nothing there right now). I am going to encourage people to buy items from my store to have their children wear for sessions.. so I wanted to change my Etsy store name and pull it all together. If you're on Facebook feel free to 'fan' me. I will post once I start selling.. have sales, etc. - http://www.facebook.com/blissclothing

That's about it! Not much to update about Ryan. He is doing alright. We've both been going through hell lately... my health.. him getting sick.. he went to urgent care today for a bad earache and he went to the chiropractor yesterday for a bad backache. We're both just falling apart.. no fun!  2009 pretty much sucks for us.

Burned fingers and ghosts.

So.. if you are a regular blog reader it is no joke I have had like THE worst week ever.. no really. Well.. although it's  been over a week since my first craziness happened I will just throw this in my (extra long week from hell) file.

I burned my friggin' fingers... pretty bad too. I was making some rice last night and took the lid off the pot and yeeeeeouch!!!!!!! the steam burned the little hairs right off my finger (I promise, I do not have hairy ape fingers lol) I have some blisters and my pointer and middle finger are all pink and tender. I'm tellin' you people.. I just can not win! It hurt like hell last night.. I thought cutting my fingers off would be easier then going through that first hour of pain. Oh yeah, it even messed up one of my acrylic nails. Mess, mess, mess... I am a dang MESS!!!!! At this point I am scared to go outside my house.. I might just get struck my lightening..and then vultures would eat me and then possibly regurgitate and I would become one with mother earth.. and then a dog would come crap on me.

Bleh.

Ghosts.. yeah. No fun.. I was browsing my message board tonight and saw a post from a lady who is having some eerie things going on and different people are posting real ghost stories. Yeah.. not cool ladies, not cool. My brain must be on standby mode because I kept reading.. and reading knowing how I get all weirded out. Next thing I know I am turning lights on around me and then I start getting freaked out someone is standing over my shoulder and keep looking around.. see... I JUST did it again.. FA-REAK! I am super tired and planned on going to bed somewhat early tonight.. no way am I stepping foot in my room without my big strong hubby here to fight off the ghosties! (really, he would throw me right at them and yell, "TAKE HER!!")  I have about 30  more minutes to sit here and spazz out before Ryan gets home.

Even the ER doctor said I was a mess!

Yep.. you read that right... ER doctor.

 

Friday night I started having what I thought was a horrible hiatal hernia pain. I did my usual routine of taking a prilosec and getting in a hot shower to relax a bit. No matter what I did I could not get the pain to go away. Ryan came home at 11:30 and he had food poisoning.. yes, life is really this crazy for us lol. My poor hubby was throwing up and dry heaving like crazy for about 30 minutes after getting home from work.

 

Ryan was able to get to sleep but I was up all night crying off and on. Around 2:00am I got my laptop and did some web searching on hiatal hernias. I came across a few sites that said if the pain is really bad an doesn't go away then the stomach could be so far inside the esophagus that it would cut off circulation and it's very dangerous and to seek medical attention ASAP.

 

Great. Now I go into my, "shit.. I'm gonna die" mode. I felt so bad but I had to wake up Ryan and have him take me to the ER.. 45 minutes away. Ooooh man was that the longest drive ever!!! I was crying and in pain ready to punch someone.. and he was really nauseated and moaning the whole time. I am really surprised we made it without getting in an accident. Lucky for us no cars are really on the road at 3:00am.

 

I get to the ER and didn't have to wait because I am a princess.... I kid, I kid. I actually went right in because I was having pains in my chest and chest pains are no joke. Which is great because every other idiot was in there for a cold. In the Antelope Valley people tend to use the ER as a regular doctors office and the wait can be HOURS.. egh.

 

I go back to triage and get the good ol' EKG.. my heart is fine as I thought it would be seems I was sure my pain was from my hiatal hernia.

 

They put me back in a room (well.. a curtain made room in another area of the ER) seems I was being a crybaby and in so much pain. Ryan had a hard time hanging in with me so he went out to sleep in the car. :(

 

It seemed like an eternity before someone came in to see me. I had to actually go up to the nurses station and lay the smack down..hey, I was in tears here and being ignored!! About 10 minutes later the doctor came in and talked to me and then the nurse gave me a morphine shot to my hip.. youch! Can you believe it didn't really help? It dulled out the pain a bit but not enough to make me comfortable. The doctor came back in and ordered 2 different pills and this nasty crap I had to drink. I forgot what they called it but I know it had the word 'cocktail' in it. It was thick and gross and the nurse told me I had to down in... so I did. Then my throat felt like it was closing up and I freaked out... this is when the nurse told me the medicine was going to numb me from my throat to my stomach.. geeze. Thanks for telling me after the small panic attack I had.

 

That stuff helped a little bit.. I was able to sleep for a whooping 15 minutes. I headed to x-ray and all that good stuff... ended up with another morphine shot. After 9 hours I was about to be sent home with instructions to take prilosec for a month for the hiatal hernia. Umm ok. I was about to get reaaaally pissed off until the doctor had a nice shiny light bulb above his head. He says to me, "Gallbladder! do you still have it?"... Yessum.. I sure do. Then he started poking around and was magically making my back hurt from pushing on my stomach. He decided to send me to ultrasound. I had to wait a dang hour just to get it done... grrrrrr! Ryan had came back awhile ago and he was just waiting for me to get picked up for ultrasound because he was dying to get in my bed for a quick nap.

 

Anyhow... after coming back from ultrasound I wait another 40 minutes or so before the doctor comes in literally smiling saying "you're a mess!" (he was saying this because I just had a tooth pulled, hiatal hernia pain, I had a few esophageal spasms while I was there.. and now.. this..) he then says to me "You are the proud owner of several small GALLSTONES!" WTH??? gallstones?? really?? Can someone please just chop me up in a million pieces and call it a day? It seems like every month I have a new issue.

 

So,  folks.. looks like I will be having surgery to remove my gallbladder very soon. *sigh* Until then I have a lovely full bottle of vicodin in case of pain.

 

Ya think they can throw in a free tummy tuck during surgery?? lol.

 

I need to remind myself.. 'someone always has it worse'. It's just hard to be positive when my dang body is crumbling before my eyes. The only good thing from this is my diet is very restricted right now and my butt has no other choice then to lose weight. Rabbit food, anyone??